Under The Gun

Text & musik: Johan Bohlin

I was on the run along the endless skyway
lying in the gutter and facing the stars
tortured by doubt, too tired to fight
too young to love and too scared to fall

she was a barfly, she was a mayfly
racing ahead while I stayed behind
I was rocked and shocked
when she came back to fetch me,
solid and sound and real and alive

but I’ll surely leave her when I’m under the gun
I’m really not sure that I am the one
you don’t believe me, she’s stronger than I
I’m weak of heart and spirit and mind

I was inside out when the darkness took her
the table was turned in the blink of an eye
white blood, flash flood, inside my head
I was rocked again in the worst kind of way

but I just can’t take it, the pain is too much
salvation’s too far and the road is too rough

you don’t believe me, she’s stronger than I
I’m weak of heart and spirit and mind

couldn’t stand my reflection
the doubts I was facing
the guilt from the urge to run away
somehow I found some strenght
in her soft embrace, and stayed

she aint heavy, it ain’t over
I won’t fall back and I won’t race ahead
a change of guards and a change of heart
from the ashes a real love will rise

we won’t fall easy, we won’t bend or break
together until the end of our days
you don’t believe me it won’t be alright
but we’re firm of heart and spirit and mind

when she closed her eyes
for the very last time
I was sad and strong and
weak and proud